April 2010
13 posts
i can feel the seams ripping again. it’s really like everything is caving in. i’m going to cave in…i want to.
i need more strength lord.
i’m sorry.
I Will Wait for You There - Phil Wickham
again...again...AGAIN
hello there all-too-familiar-feeling. you’re back. again. you like me too much don’t you? but please, can’t you just give me a break? aren’t you sick of me? because i’m pretty sick of you. why did you come back? why now? ughh. GO AWAY
i’m tired of feeling lonely. i’m tired of thinking about it. i’m tired of feeling this way. …am i really as...
“Seeing the good in the seemingly bad is not easy.. But nothing “worth it” is...”
– Note to self. (via gabebondoc)
foolish.
it’s quite easy to fool yourself…sometimes you can get away with it longer than you’d think. but eventually you have to come face to face with who you’ve become.
i didn’t really think i was fooling myself. although i was aware of some of my actions. who knows, maybe i minimized what i was doing…not that big of a deal, i’m right anyway. sure in some ways i...
I hope you remember..
While things are fairly ok with me…or at least seems for now…I see other people are hurting. And it hurts seeing people I care about hurting but it makes me hurt. It esp hurts when you can’t really do anything about it, you don’t know what to do. Or you there are things you can say but it may not really help. How do you really know what they feel when you’re not experiencing it? A great solution...
Mirages
(from yesterday…just before I got off the bus the wifi was cut off and didn’t get to post this…and just forgot later about it :( …but now it’s up :) )
On megabus again but going back to temple this time. I want to sleeeep BUT can’t b/c of my never-ending-torturous-annoying project T-T this project seriously consumed my life since it was first assigned. I...
Blurbs along the way..
On megabus now on my way home for the weekend…it’s soo nice today in Philly but I know it’s supposed to rain and be cold at home this weekend -.- exciting. All for Luca though…my soon to be godson…my second godchild hah.
Hmmm….don’t really know what to expect from this weekend. I haven’t been home since January so yeaa…haven’t heard...
fruit progression. seeking, founded
it’s 2:10 am and i’m still up. debating whether to sleep now or just keep working on my project for a few more hours. usually i can function with at least 5-6 hours of sleep. finally starting the second part although i am a bit nervous w/it b/c idk how and what to do on some areas. but i want to get this done ASAP at this point. only have four more days left, if i hand it in on time...
jumbled.
something feels so heavy in me. i don’t get what it is or when it started. but it’s that all too familiar feeling from the many times before.
maybe it’s just my period talking. yes i have frequent mood swings when i’m on it and they can be pretty bad sometimes. but i’ve felt it most of the day already. mainly after church. it’s easter today. the day christ rose...
mold me.
today is good friday. and what a good friday it has been already…weather wise! haha. the rest of the week is supposed to be like this, which is…AWESOMEEE haha. i feel a bit too happy for whatever reason. sure i did finish classes :] but hmm…idk…it just feels like a good day. the black eyed peas song is playing in my head now aha…that tonight’s gonna be a good...
