I can’t seem to feel anything. I’ve become numb. To people in front of me. Even to you father. The one who doesn’t deserve any of it. I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I’m hurting you. I wish I knew how to break from this. It’s like I’m….stuck
this feels too familiar... →
“Spit and kick at the dark gray clouds Come over, sun Shine bright, shine upon me I raise both of my hands Sun shines upon me Inspire me Things will get better All I need is just a glimpse of inspiration I can do it I can do it Maybe I can write it all Maybe I can leave my mark on this world Maybe I can inspire millions Maybe I can see, I can see, That I can do whatever if I put my mind...
Help me find my way back to you
I wish I could understand what’s going on….who I am. I don’t know what’s going on anymore. I’ve let go again and it feels so hard to come back. I’m sorry father. I’m sorry for my lack of love. I don’t want to be like this but can’t help but think why? Why as in…b/c I don’t want to be…or I shouldn’t be.. Both are valid...
Since I’ve been back from San Diego… Accomplished…..nothing -________- Total bumming. Feels like mood swings are kicking in as I want to do something the night before for the next day but then that day comes and…well…….nothing. Applying for daffy’s. That’ll be something. First job ever too. Excited but nervous and scared. Have no idea what to...